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A couple of weeks back I had another Nutrimetics party (I’m set for the next decade on cosmetics!), and flatmate was there. I made a date for the next party (3 in a year and you get a bonus, this decade will be the cheapest at least ), and then I thought ‘wait, that might be the weekend we are due to move out of here’. Asked flatmate if she could remember when we moved in, then I worked out that yes, it was that weekend that our lease was up. Then, flatmate comes out with:

‘But I’m sure they won’t make us move out THAT weekend‘

Seriously. We’re on a one year fixed lease. And yea, maybe closer to the time there could be room for negotiation on move out date (we won’t be staying here most likely, and if we do, we’ll be kicking her out!). But still, seriously! They have every right to have us out on the street on that very day, whether we have somewhere else to live or not!! Welcome to the real world asshat, about time you grew up and joined us.

Stay tuned for the next installment… also, thanks to Kari for naming my new column!

It turns out I didn’t think my plan through very well. Now I’ve got his interest, what do I do?! I don’t know what he expects… it was so hard to get him to come to the party, and now he’s here, I don’t know what the next move is supposed to be! He’s been sooo lovely, was really caring and concerned last weekend, text me both on the day of my surgery and two days later to check in on how I was feeling, and now I feel like I’m the one holding back, not because I want to hold back, but because I don’t know what direction to take! What do I do now?!!? I feel like I should send a text to him, ask him how things are going and if he’s had a good week. But that kinda seems like I’m fishing for a) him to ask me over again, or b) personal info in a relationship kind of way.

And I can’t really invite him over here, it’s a little difficult with the flatmates… And realistically, it can only be either a friends thing or a casual thing. There is no relationship potential, we want different things in the long term… I need one of those pick-a-path books so I at least have some different paths to choose from.

UPDATE: I sent a ‘hey how’s your weekend going’ text and he said we should catch up next weekend, so it’s all good for another week or two! Hopefully next weekend I’ll be all fixed up again, little bit of pain and discomfort at the moment, but still intending to go back to work tomorrow, might just do a couple of half days if I get too tired.

This time yesterday I was checked into my room at the hospital and the nurse was running around like a mad-woman, I don’t think she knew what she was doing! Finally got down to surgery at about 2:30pm. They were all waiting and waiting and waiting for me. That nurse? Forgot to take me down to theatre after they rang and told her they were ready. Tells you how great she is… Luckily when I woke up shifts had changed and we had a much better nurse who was very nice and clearly knew a lot more about what she was doing, plus she had a new nurse following her round (new to the hospital, not to nursing!) so I had two of them taking care of me.

Everything is fine, now at least. There was endometriosis in three places and they cut it all out. I have pics if anyone wants to see the before and after of my insides! Ew So I’m feeling fine, they pump you full of some gas to inflate the area, and even though they deflate you, apparently some of that gas likes to travel to your shoulders, so a little sore there. Plus I had to sleep sitting up first last night cos when I lay down I could breathe for the pain under my ribcage. More of that gas apparently. Was wondering why I felt a little sore at the site of the actual surgery just now, then I realised I hadn’t taken meds in about 5-6 hours haha. Silly me. So apart from that, and moving around very slowly, things are good. All sorted now I hope! Thank you for all your support, best wishes and comments, I’m so glad that they found something. No guarantees, but things should get a whole lot better soon and this fatigue that has plagued me for soooo long should go away.

And, of course, some of you are waiting to hear about my Saturday night. It was great! He was the perfect gentlemen (once he finished playing around with his very expensive new speakers that he’d been working on all day. They are cooler than his car apparently. His car is a Porchse!). He had dinner in the oven (roast chicken!) and kept me topped up on wine. He even had cheese and crackers ready, how many guys would think of that?! We watched a couple of movies (would highly recommend Life as a House and Fallen if you haven’t seen them already). It was very lovely and he was very concerned that I was having surgery in two days time. I was very tired and a little distracted so I explained why. Plus he plays a role in the industry so he knows procedures and ailments, and it was good to name drop my surgeon. He hadn’t heard of him, which is a good thing as he deals with the dodgy ones!

It gets even better too. He text me last night to say that he hoped surgery went well and telling me to take care etc. How sweet! I would not have expected that from him at all a couple of months ago. He was the only person to text in fact, most people had sent well-wishes in advance and I said I’d catch up with them today. But still, the one and only text I get on the day was from him. Yes, copious amounts of undeserved swooning… I’ll blame the anaesthetic

I went into town today to deliver some Nutrimetics to a friend at work, then had a look around the shops. I’m having a pair of $300 (!!!) boots brought into one shop to try on in my size, will post a pic if I buy them…. Then I went to try on some new winter pj’s cos there was a sale on, and came across these totally cute fitting rooms:

Totally cool, right? There’s nothing worse than walking into a fitting room with 1, or even 2, hooks and no room to even take a step back to look in the mirror. This was spacious, had a bench and not 1, but FOUR hooks, and so thoughtfully labelled! It’s just a shame that everyone elses crap was still on them haha. I just had to take a pic and share with you .

So… remember the text message? The one I sent over THREE weeks ago? The one you all commented on so honestly and frankly, comments that I really appreciated? I was happy, I’d put myself out there, I hadn’t gotten anything back, but I was happy, I was moving on. Then on Saturday I get a text. From him. Would I like to come over for dinner and a movie? There was no consideration, the answer was hell yes! Small problem though… I was out of town. So I text back and explained the issue and said "how about next weekend?". He said he’d be in touch… and I thought ‘yea ok, we’ll see about that then’. But as my flatmate pointed out, at least I got to postpone on him for a change!

Then, double shock, what do you know? It’s only Wed and he’s trying again for this Sat night! So of course I said yes. It’s at his house, that can only mean he’s after one thing. But damnit, I need that one thing too! And seeing as my surgery is on the Tuesday following, I might be out of action for a week or three. So that’s put a little much needed excitement in my life. Apart from that things are rather dreary, I’m fighting a cold, which jeopardises my surgery. I can’t have it jeopardised, cos my mum has flights booked and everything else is all sorted. I came home early from work on Monday and my other (dim witted, unhygienic, generall uncouth) flatmate commented that I was home early, and I explained the situation. Her response?

"But isn’t the surgery supposed to make you better?"

Um.. yea… we all rush off to a surgeon and have them slice us open for a mere head cold. Seriously.

Which brings me to the finale of this post, I have a few of these stirling little quotes from said flatmate, I think I’m going to start a regular feature to share some of these with you, with special guest posts from any other equally dim-witted people who manage to come up with these inane, illogical, or just plain stupid words and actually speak them out loud. Yes, I know, very judgemental, I’m not always the straightest thinker either, but I have no patience for plain ineptitude.

This could be the first and last of these…. at least on this particular day each year. However I was going for some sense of austerity for the occasion

This weeks task for Shai’s 52 WoC project is to find out more about your readers. I can look in the stats I collect (but rarely look at anyway) and see where you all come from, and those that comment, I can read your blogs and find out more that way. Even then, I try to remain largely anonymous, and some of you will be the same. For the most part you’re all rather mysterious, and sometime I forget that there is a real person who has sat at their computer and read my post and maybe commented. I’m trying to come out of my shell now, and encourage you to do the same. Please leave a comment, even if it’s just to say ‘hi, I’m here, I read your blog’ (no need to comment on the terrible writing skills I have tho!). If you’re up for it, tell me more: where you live, how you found my blog, link me to your own blog, and tell me an interesting fact about yourself, or about something interesting happening in your life at the moment.

Thanks, and I look forward to finding out more about you all! 

Uh… I just tried putting a Bratz sticker in my DS lite. Instead of my wallet. They bear a slight resemblence, more so when you are reaching for something in the corner of your eye sight. Then I noticed there was quite an assortment of things on the table that represented my fun day, as blogged about in the previous post. Click on the picture to see flickr notes.

Today was one of the best days! And it was totally unexpected too, the day I had was not the one I planned at all. First of all, I was supposed to go on a boat trip and spend the day on an island up the coast with my workmates. However, I was all packed up, ready to go, putting my stuff in the car when I got the call. The call to cancel. Apparently there was some severe weather warning or something like that. I was all weather schmeather, but the boats don’t run if the weather is bad. I guess those boat people know a little bit more than me, so we had to go with it.

So, I unpacked the car, came back inside thinking ‘oh well, an unexpected day of WoW! Suits me fine’. Then came plan change 2, flatmate got up early (forgot to turn her alarm off, tehe) and decided to go to the gym, but her car battery was flat. Her dad, who’s into all sorts of crazy gadgets and is a total penny pincher at the same time, installed a funky alarm that makes the battery go flat if you don’t drive at least once a week. It had been less than a week, but the 10 minute drive 5 days ago didn’t charge the battery much at all. Then flatmate came up with a cool idea, lets drive to the petting farm/ice cream shop/cheese place, cos she needed to drive for a good hour to get the battery fully charged. So off we went, petted the goats and ponies and admired the deer. They were proper Bambi deer too! Like brown with the white spots, I’d never seen real life Bambi deer, only other boring deer.

Then we had some morning tea to get out of the rain (and cos it was still only like 10am lol), and bought some candy, and some stuff to make lip balm with, and some Lemon Meringue Pie Ice Cream. Yum!!! We got a whole carton to bring home, cos it was still a tad early for ice cream.

We were home by about lunch time, because we started the day soooo early. What’s a girl to do with a whole empty Saturday afternoon? Duh… go shopping!! Things get a little blurry after this…. We shopped, came home, went out, shopped some more, came home, went out, ate dinner, flatmate went to work and now I’m home again…. or something like that. I started stockpiling for my week off that’s coming up (more on that soon), I bought a series of Outrageous Fortune because I totally missed series 3 on tv and then, the big one: a brand new pink (of course) Nintendo DS Lite!

Yay! So much fun!! I got Nintendogs, Brain Training and some silly Nicktoons game. I really wanted some old school arcade stuff, but Sonic and Yoshi were more than twice the price of Nicktoons! I’ll look around for second hand games from now on. So I’ll be spending the rest of the weekend playing with that. Can’t wait to show it off to BFF’s 11 year old boy haha. How sad. And he so won’t be impressed by the pink, but we can talk games and stuff. He has one already, so don’t think I’ll be rubbing it in his face! Lol, I’m not mean.

So I’ll get a couple of books, and buy my mum some mags or books or puzzles or something, cos she’s coming to stay that week. Which sounds fun. But it’s not really… she’s coming to look after me cos I’m going to have surgery, so it will be awesome having her here, but not ‘fun’ as such. I saw a second surgeon this week, and although he came to the same conclusion as the first, I feel a lot more comfortable about him performing the surgery than the first psycho surgeon I saw! Plus he’s totally hot, I’ll be going to sleep one happy girl seeing his face as the anaesthetic kicks in  

It’s just a diagnostic tool at this stage, but they will treat any nasty stuff if they find it at the same time, so it’s a little hard to predict the impact on my body and the recovery time, but a week off should be sufficient. I think I feel a whole lot better this week knowing that there is finally going to be some movement and some answers, even if it’s ‘no, we didn’t find anything’, at least I’ll rule something out and then can try a different type of specialist. Plus I got lucky with a cancellation, I wasn’t even due to see him till early May and now my surgery is scheduled for earlier than the original appointment.

Anyway, I gotta go play with my brand new beagle puppy, Dax. He’s a Nintendog of course  

Thank you all for your comments, in my head I know you’re all right! It’s been a year though, and I’ve chanted the mantra most of that time: "he’s just not that into you". I also think I failed to mention that I went out of my way to avoid liking anyone for FOUR years. Not that it was all that hard, for two of those years the only guys who hit on me were taken, anything from having an on/off gf to married with kids. Seriously. Ugh. Then there was the lawyer…

But you’re right, balls in his court now, I’ve put it out there, it’s obvious, it’s up to him. Part of me (cos girls are silly like this) wants to carry out some sort of relationship, I need a bigger ending, or just an ending, instead of all this ’see you again’, ‘we should catch up’ kind of stuff. I know it’s destined for failure and it’s highly self-destructive to take that path… But, on the off chance it might actually work, and so that I know once and for all instead of wondering my whole life, I want to do it anyway. Plus I know he’s a great kisser, and I need a damn good kiss right now, the ex was terrible! Anyway, I’ll leave it alone, and see what happens (which we all know is nothing!).

On another note…. I picked up my flatmate from work, so we could go to a party. Actually we were ‘making an appearance’ at the party. Not because we are that important, but because we don’t like some people there. Which flatmate makes painfully obvious. But because they are young and drunk, they don’t notice. It was actually kinda cool, I got to see some of the kids from my floor at the hostel where I was an RA in 2006.

But, back to the purpose of this little story. I went to pick up flatmate from work, and she counted some money and stock and sorted out whatever it is she needed to sort out, then we went upstairs to the office to drop everything off, and I met her manager there. I’d seen a picture. Think axe-murderer mugshot. Or grumpy grey old fat bearded man at least. He was not either of those things, grey yes, older yes, but I actually felt a brief glimmer of attraction! It was the oddest feeling… however, it gives me hope, there’s a chance I might find somebody else I like just as much, if not more, than the above lawyer. And not one I think I like, or force myself to like, and settle just because he’s there and likes me (the ex). One I like first. And that might like me back.

So, it’s no secret I’m madly in love with lusting after a certain lawyer… To catch anyone up who needs it, I met him over a year ago, and still think about him more often than I should. I saw him before christmas and he said ‘we should catch up for coffee’ and I gave him my card. TWO months later I rang him, because I knew he would never rang me. We set a coffee date and he bailed, we set another one and he bailed again, I said ‘rhat’s ok, third time’s a charm’ and the third time never came….

Till yesterday

Yesterday (being Sunday in this part of the world) I was working away (8 hours, unpaid) when I decided to treat myself for lunch and went to the bagel shop. It happens to be right opposite his house. (Yes, this is the closest bagel shop to my work!!). So I went and enjoyed a delicious garlic and herb cream cheese bagel. Then (of course, because I had just eaten a garlic and herb bagel) I bumped into him on the walk back to work. We had a quick chat, where I babbled away for a couple of minutes (while hoping like hell there was no herb stuck in my teeth), then when there was a pause, he would just look. And he wasn’t just looking at me like ‘omg, you’re so boring, how do I get away’. It was more of a McDreamy looking at Meredith look. You know the one. Then to prevent myself from jumping him right then and there, I would babble on few a couple more minutes… it was terrible. But he did say ‘hey, if you’re still around later, give me a text, we could catch up’.

So after many calls to the BFF (who was on the PHONE! got the voicemail every time) and dumping my dilemma on a good guy friend instead (poor thing!) I rang tbe lawyer and we met for coffee. More babbling and staring ensued.

Then, later on, BFF and I composed the perfect text message. It went a little something like this:

"Finally finished and going home! Was good to catch up today, I just wanted to say I was reminded of how terribly attractive you are. Hope you enjoy your evening"

What do you think? Pretty good huh? Nice and casual… nothing dodgy, just a compliment. Then (2 looooong hours later) I get the perfect reply:

"Hi only just saw your message, very kind of you to say that, thank you for the coffee will have to do it again sometime, take care"

What do you think? It’s a little bit of a brush off… but that’s him for you. I didn’t really expect any declaration of love (or at least lust!). I just wanted him to know, in as little detail as possible, how incredibly hot I think he is and how much I lust after him lol.

I desperately wanted to kiss him… He is an excellent kisser, and I need a damn good kiss, asap! The ex was terrible. And there’s been noone since. I need to be reminded of how great kissing can be!!

Please leave a comment below and tell me what you’d do next! I don’t know what to do… And (as cliched as this sounds) I would really just like to have him as a good friend. He’s an awesome person and I really admire his ambitious nature and dedication to work (I’d be happily married if I was married to a workaholic haha). And he’s extremely handsome, I’d be happy just looking (if I found someone else to be doing the touching with! tehe), because at the end of the day, he doesn’t have any ambitions in the family area, so obviously any permanent relationship is out of the question. What do you think?