general rant
Why, oh why, oh why! Why do I bother talking to such assholes?!?
And anyway, who opens a conversation with: "oh, big boobs is here"
SERIOUSLY!!! Yes I have big(ish) boobs, yes I know that, yes you know that, but NO! you cannot actually say that TO MY FACE (or my msn, whatever). It all went downhill from there, I had him up about it, and pointed out that there are other things to talk about etc. and THEN… then he said this:
‘I don’t think anyone knows what you’re talking about’
Are you serious?? So I did the thing I hate when people do it to me, and blatantly blocked him. he will know he is blocked, unless he’s too fucking stupid to work it out.
He seemed like a nice enough guy at first, though the pressure was on to keep up the flirty charade thing, it was getting tiring. You know, when I’m in the mood, no problems, I can have a light conversation, make sex jokes, flirt, whatever! But I’m just not in that mood 24/7!! Sometimes all I wanna do is bitch about how awful my day is, or listen to someone bitch about theirs, or talk about ANY other topic that comes up, or talk about a movie, or a song, or SOMETHING, something other than sex. Yea, I have big boobs, but I didn’t pay for those boobs (nothing against those who do! I also didn’t ask for big boobs, this is just a fact of life I have to live with, like it or not). What I am paying for, A LOT for, is my education. My straight A education (up till last week anyways!). I’m intelligent, and not afraid to admit that I’m smart, I spend a lot of time studying, I know my shit (sometimes!), and that I have huge ambitions in life, why does it seem like there is not one single guy out there who can appreciate this?!
You know where I think I’m going wrong? I think it’s the whole dating website thing. Maybe I should give up. Even if I ever found someone I might consider meeting, I wouldn’t anyways, I’m too self conscious about the way I look at the moment (joining WW is on the agenda for this week!).
Anyways, onto other things, now that that asshole is B-L-O-C-K-E-D.
My leg is fucked. It’s not enough that my scalp is fucked, my neck is fucked, my back is fucked, my skin is fucked. Now my leg is fucked. I’ve been in pain for like a week. And it’s weird, cos the pain is travelling down my leg slowly. And I actually have to limp from time to time just to get around. I haven’t been in so much random pain that I have had to limp before. I also cut myself on the tomato slicer at work and then ripped a hang nail and tore the skin underneath. I’m a MESS!! Was fun trying to play with beads tonight with sticky plasters all over my fingers! However I managed to make this pretty bracelet:
Isn’t is cool? I love it! I’m so not a creative person, but I think this looks wicked 
I love the bracelet! I’m not creative in the LEAST.
I can not stand men that talk sex 24/7. I honestly can’t think of more of a turn off. R NEVER talked about sex with me when we were in the “getting to know each other” stage and I appreciated. I found myself bringing it up just to see what HE would do. You will find someone. I went back and forth between online and off. Hating one, going back to the other. I was actually really close to deleting my profile when R sent me an email. It’s good he did it when he did! Because I took myself off the site the very next week. Good luck! I hope your wounds all heal up.
Thanks for your thoughts, I go on and off the whole ‘online dating’ thing too, maybe it’s time for an ‘off’ period! The only guy I met in person off this round was actually real nice, apart from the fact I thought he knocked me up for about a month, thats never a fun time. He has a gf now, but he’s supposed to come chill with me on friday night, but then he broke his ankle, so I don’t know if he will now
Comment by mary — August 31, 2006 @ 1:56 pm