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So I got a call from one of the people who interviewed me on Monday, finally! However, it was ‘one of those in-between calls’ I think she referred to it as. She said that they are still working on it, they got in trouble with HR and have some red tape to work through apparently, she was very apologetic, both for not calling already and for not being able to tell me. But I’m hoping this is a good thing. Maybe they alraedy rang the other person and told them ‘no’ but can’t say ‘yes’ to me till it’s all approved? Maybe that’s just wishful thinking… Nevermind, at least I heard something from them before the weekend.

Just have to wait and see…

oh, and the kit kat? not good!! Not enough cookie dough and too much caramel. What was with the layer of caramel over the cookie dough? I did not expect that!! Nowhere does it say ‘cookie dough and caramel kit kat’… Nevermind, I learnt a lesson, chocolate makes me feel like shit! I LOVE chocolate, love it, but after not having it for so long, it makes me feel all sick and blah. Will just have to save it for special occasions or something now, no stupid limited edition kit kats just because. There’s a honeycomb one as well, didn’t think much of that either… On the upside, this whole WW thing is saving me a fortune! Well maybe not a fortune, cos I have to pay for the meetings and bus fares and pool entries instead, but certainly my grocery bill has gone down and junk food/coffee bill has plummeted to nearly nothing!
 

One:

They finally have something ‘cookie dough’ flavoured in NZ!!

Wa-lah!

Yum! … well it looks yum, I haven’t actually tried it yet.

Two:

How reliable is the USPS? They tell me on their website they can ship me something in 3-5 days by Express Mail. I’m not convinced! But I can save like $130 on a new pair of frames and just get the lenses done by my optometrist here. That is worth waiting 3-5 days for. But not 13-15 days.

Three:

I don’t actually think there was a third… I was trying to advance on yesterday. Here’s 5 random things instead:

1. I’m going swimming again tomoro, which is exciting

2. I just bought a bottle of Mountain Dew. It tastes like ass. When did that happen?!

3. I still haven’t heard back from my job interview! Should I ring?

4. I’m plagued by fatigue at the moment, I need to nap every afternoon. The upside? I can rearrange my exams to be in the morning, I hate afternoon exams, it is not possible to study on the morning of your exam.

5. I lost 1.4 kg this week due to all my exercise. That’s 3 pounds. I was very pleased. (And I rewarded myself with a cookie dough chocolate bar, go figure!)

6. I remembered the third thing. Is anyone actually reading this thing? I haven’t checked the stats in a while. Leave a comment if you read this sentence!! please And once my exams are over I’m going to work on making this thing pretty, maybe even reveal what I look like!

I went swimming today!! It was sooo great, I really enjoyed it (for me, enjoying anything exercise related is wEirD!), I think I’ve probably swam laps about 3 times in the past 9 years? Maybe even less than that! before that I swam for about 4 years in primary/intermediate school (age 9-13), and even before that I have vague memories of having lessons when I was about 4 or 5.

It was (almost) emotional! I (almost) felt like crying after the first lap cos I was thinking ‘why the hell did I wait so damn long to get in a pool?!’ Anyway, my plan now is to go 2-3 times a week, mon/wed/fri mornings when it’s nice and quiet (cept for the asshole who kept getting in way cos he should have been in the fast lane). I started in the slow lane, but after 2 laps I was done with that, moved on up to the next level! Swam about 500 metres total, not a bad effort for the first time. Only downside - water in my ears!! One of my ears is fully blocked up with water, maybe I should invest in some earplugs.

So that’s the first thing, here’s the second:

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I’m off the optometrist soon, wish me luck, I REALLY don’t want a new prescription!! Not after my car crapped out on me in the weekend and I had to buy a new battery. And I also paid my first ever parking fine today. So yea, feeling a little broke right now. Actually feeling a LOT broke as opposed to the usual neverending little broke that plagues students lives.

Still waiting for the call about my job, I’m really hoping I’ll know by the end of today!

… days that start off wonderfully and soon turn to CRAP???

Got up this morning, actually managed to get a good nights sleep because I drank only water at the restaurant last night, and then went for a huge walk/run. Emphasis on the run. I don’t run, never have, never thought I would, but I actually jogged a few (flatter) sections of my (otherwise) steadily uphill walk. So of course I return, feeling great, thinking how I actually did something positive today. Then I forget about the stupid 2 hour limit rule on the car parks by my house in the weekends and get a $12 fine. Thank goodness it wasn’t a weekday, cos I woulda got slapped with $40. At this point things are still going relatively okay though, I can live with $12 (thanks to cuz’s bf paying for my dinner last night!).

Then I try, as I have been trying for the past THREE days to get my clothes drying rack that I lent to someone a week ago. A WEEK AGO! This isn’t something random I have in my drawer and use once in a blue moon, this thing is permanently erected in my room and covered with an assortment of clothes ranging from wet to been-dry-for-three-days-and-haven’t-bothered-to-put-them-away-yet. As per usual, no answer from the door, so I finally just go and get the damn key (RA privileges!) and let myself in, knocking againfirst, calling out to see if anyone is home, knocking again on this girls bedroom door before opening it, then… I couldn’t really tell for absolute sure, but I’m pretty damn sure she was her damn bed this whole time! At 3:30pm! Who sleeps for that long?! And then doesn’t bother to answer the door, even her bedroom door, when someone is knocking all day? So in the end I couldn’t even get the damn drying rack out cos it was impossible to get to cos of the MESS and I didn’t really wanna go in while she was asleep in there anyway. ARGH! I have an interview on Monday, I need to wash and iron my clothes before then!! Luckily with 105 apartments in one building I managed to find one to borrow off someone else, but I shouldn’t have to, especially after trying for THREE days to get mine back. Plus I had to rewash a load of clothes that had been sitting in the machine the last three days.

And, just once, could my flatmates please take the DAMN FUCKING TRASH OUT when they fill it to the brim???? Every single time it’s me who takes it out and puts a new bag in, then every single time I check they have filled it right up again!

I feel like Sandra Bullock in Crash sometimes, minus the racism, I get so pent up with anger about every single little thing!! The big things don’t bother me nearly as much, I can take things as they come, it’s the little annoying every day shit that just gets on my nerves. I can’t wait to not be studying, I think that will help, I have spent all day lying on my bed reading, not even thinking about studying or anything really, and it’s sooo relaxing, I wish I could feel like that every weekend.

Two signs I am doing the right thing:

1. I had lunch with my boy cousin today, he asked me to sub-let his room from mid-Nov (my contract finishes here on 15th Nov) till the end of January because he is moving back to Auckland before his lease runs out.

2. I had dinner with my girl cousin tonight, she has lots of friends who are moving around the world over the next few months, so I have found someone who needs to get rid of bedroom furniture right around the time I will be needing some.

I will have to think some more about M’s room offer, I’m not 100% sure about that one, but the timing of both these coincidental events is absolutely perfect considering my decisions of yesterday!

So, now for some good news… not that I can remember if my last post was good or bad, but anyhoo. Decisions have been reached, interviews are being conducted, things are moving foward.

I had an interview to have my job back for next year on Monday, it went well, a little too well considering I didn’t really want the job! I kinda wanted to see if I would actually get the job before turning it down, but I live and work with my managers very closely and decided I would rather be up front with them, so I told him (they are a husband/wife ‘team’) tonight that I’m no longer interested in the job and why. He was very understanding and appreciative, and offered to be a referee for me anytime. He even seemed a bit upset! Said he’d miss having me around and was sad to hear I’d changed my mind, but totally respectful of my decision, which was very sweet.

So that’s all sorted, I will be living in a real house with no rules, no structure, no office hours, no duty nights!! And a BIG bed, I worked out the other day that I’ve owned my bed for more than twice as long as I’ve actually slept on it (if you can work that little riddle out!), it’s in my parents garage at the moment, so I will have it shipped up here in November, I need to buy a new mattress though.

Next piece of news: I have an interview with my dream employer!! Woohoo!! It’s just for a summer internship, but still, foot in the door and all that. So that’s Monday morning.

And that’s the end of my news, I could still end up anywhere doing just about anything by the time the school year starts next year, but I have a plan: apply for any and all jobs between now and Feb, and if nothing by Feb, then I will enrol in Honours.

Oh, there was some bad news, my cousins birthday dinner is tomoro night, not saturday as per the original plan,  and I’m working tomoro night! Damnit all, I’m trying to swap though.

And there was some really awful awful news, and if I figure out how to do a password protected post, I’ll share with some of you, but for now everything is okay, and it should stay that way, so that’s the main thing!!

Enjoy the rest of your week!!

Ka kite

N  

Conversation btw me and friend, R, on msn:

R: My bf told me he needed some space, and I understand and totally respect that, but when I text him asking him if he wanted to hang out tonight, he didn’t reply

Me: (silence)

Me (inside my head): The boy said he needed some space, so you text him? What part of ’space’ don’t you understand?

R: There’s a right way to do space you know

Me: (silence)

Me (inside my head): right way? huh? And anyway, if you been together two weeks how come he needs space already? That sounds like a relationship destined for failure

R: blah blah blah, bitch bitch bitch, I’m insecure, I know I am and I try so hard not to be, but I can’t help it

Me:  (silence)

Me (inside my head): Well that will happen when you and your best friend are both screwing the same guy and going behind each others back to try and be the first one to get him to commit to you.

It doesn’t matter that I don’t reply to her msgs, she’ll keep talking forever. I try to be the nice friend and say ‘well, just go do your own thing, the sooner you quit bugging him, the sooner he will come crawling back for attention, you gotta play him! Make him think he’s the one in control, when in fact it’s you etc.’ or whatever piece of good, sound advice I happen to offer on any given night. She never takes my advice though, ever.

I just want to give it to her straight up: These idiots are losers! They have done nothing in the past eight years (cept pop out a dozen kids btw them), gone nowhere (cept to collect their benefits from the government). All they do is backstab each other, sleep with each other, and generally lead unfulfilling lives. I moved on from these people seven years ago, I realised they’re just not worth my time. R is a smart girl, she could do anything she wanted, go anywhere she wanted! She has her parents support in whatever she wants to do. Yet she chooses a life of mistrust in every single person she knows.

One day she said to me "I know I’m always going to have a shit life, and I’m just accepting that". It’s really sad that she feels she has to have that outlook on life when she’s got at least another 50 or so years to live. That’s an incredible amount of time to live such a life, especially when you could do a million other things in that time.

But how in the hell do I even begin to try and get her to understand all this? One thing I’ve learnt in the past is that you just can’t help people who don’t want to help themselves. So maybe I don’t even bother trying? That doesn’t feel right though either. She of all people should have also learnt the same thing, all she’s been trying to do for the past eight years is help these people, she really just needs to help herself now. I guess I just wait in the sidelines till she’s ready to do that.

… you open your 6 pack of WW Rasperry Pies, and find not six, but seven Rasperry Pies!! They are DE-lish too!

I also applied for my first ‘real’ job today, and have at least three more to apply for, wish me luck!

N xx 

Least he text to cancel and didn’t just stand me up. Had to help his mum with something. Meh. Was kinda looking forward to it! If nothing else I got to leave the house and go to the movies. But nevermind, he emphasised that it was a postponement, not a cancellation. So that’s good I guess.

I’m also talking to two other guys who seem kinda ok, though one is a bit of an oddball I think!

Just one more thing for today: for future reference lining up the plastics for recycling in regimented lines and straightening up the rubbish bin does.not.change the fact that the rubbish still needs to be taken OUT!! seriously…. I say seriously a lot, I know, but seriously!! just cos it’s ‘neat’ doesn’t mean it doesn’t still exist!! aRgH!